Greetings , humanoids , I am Fathin , the owner of this very weird blog . This is where I tease and make fun of people whenever I feel sad or anoyed . This is also the place where I turn to when I feel bored or happy. So , get ready to read my nonsense talk. Goodbye and peace out ! ♥
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♔ Wednesday, December 2, 2009
12:49 AM |
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Not be able to accept the future
Tittle: Not be able to accept the future
Mood: Almost crying
Facial expression: How do you look like when you're about to cry?
Song: Whatcha Say by Jason Derulo & Secrets by OneRepublic
I'm so scared. Scared. Yes. I am AFRAID. SCARED. So afraid. I don't know why. Maybe because of next year. PMR? Turun kelas? Both what i am afraid of. I'm afraid that I maybe going to 3a3 that i will lose my face. i don't want that to happen. i tried to get my best on the last exam, but i don't know why i can't accept those things. i have no idea. maybe i should let go of my fantasy that i already have since ever. i have this fantasay which i can't tell to you cos it's part of my life and its a secrets. its nothing but i think its getting in my way. perhaps next year i have to let go of it just for a little bit while. relax and be myself. i'm making this entry just to calm myself down since i almost cried writing this down and i don't know why. i'm in pain and i don't know why. i am so scared. so afraid of next year. i'm afraid that next year i won't be accepting my fate. i maybe cannot accept the reality and starting to play in my fantasy all over again. and i don't to lalaikan myself. please, Ya Allah. help me.
Hello I'm mad :)
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