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♔ Monday, December 14, 2009
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My Soundtrack
These songs are just the right songs to express my feelings to him. The new him. Not Mars anymore. I’m officially not into him anymore. I can’t tell who the guy is but what I can tell is just that I’ve known him since ever but I just realized it then and now he is not here and I mean not here. Not dead of course, just that he is not in Kuching, he exited himself out of my life. Well, not on purpose though. I maybe cannot see him anymore. Forever, maybe. So, these listed songs are the way I feel about him and the speech that I want to tell him but I got no chance.
1. Catch Me – Demi Lovato
This song is about the guy wanted to leave (in a good way) her but she couldn’t let go of the guy. So it reminds me of me and him and the song connects, you know!
2. I Notice – Automatic Loveletter
This song is about the girl just realized that guy and just like me, I just notice him now, before, none of any chemistry.
3. Avalanche – Marie Digby
While this song is about the girl and the guy trying to get out from their miseries, well, it connects to me by something somehow.
4. Happy – Leona Lewis
Just like this song, I can still be happy while he’s away.
5. Secrets – OneRepublic
I just love this song so much that it’s just somehow attached to me.
6. The Only Exception – Paramore
God, I love this song. It’s very relaxing and like the song and he is to me, he’s the only exception. :)
7. Disgusting – Ke$ha
Actually, this song is more to me and Logan since the lyrics are “It’s disgusting, how I love you,” and not really to me and him cos I don’t ‘love’ him like that yet. DUH.
So, mostly this songs are very JIWANG so jangan anok aku jiwang ah. Just time tok jak jiwang. If any of the KamiBSKL members read this, you will know who the hell I’m talking about. He is the guy that I told you about that I dreamt about him almost 4 times in about 2 weeks. Remember? And he’s going away. Yes. He is. And every time I think about him, I feel like crying. SHIAT. Relax, Fathin. I’m gonna post a Catch Me lyrics cos it’s really interesting.
And I wrote him two songs, the first one was written about last month and the second one, last night. :)
1. By My Side
This is more personal, like he’s more like my best friend than a boyfriend, like that, not boyfriend mahh.:P
2. Remembering You
This is more after he’s gone, I’ll always remember the days that we used to hang out. This is written based on a true story, that what happened is really what happened.
So uh, I don’t know how I’m going to do after this, will I go crazy, no. I may forget about him, like I did before. Wish me luck :) and i'm off to write one more song for him. :D
Hello I'm mad :)
I like perfection. I'm very organized. I'm obsessed with beauty. I got anger issues. I love writing lyrics. I waste my time watching cartoons. I like to be in control. I like to be ahead of people. I like to be different. I'm very aggressive. I too like to smile. I like to be decently dressed. I love to have lots of fun with my girls. I like to dance and sing and party. I like to meet new people. I scream and will be moody if I'm mad. I throw things then cry if I'm angry. I too will be very hyper even if I'm exhausted. I want to be a model. I've walked the runaway. I'm very hygienic. I'm really tall for my age. I dislike being tanned. I'd rather be pale dead. I like to eat, especially chicken. I like being fashionably late. I 'torture' my brother everyday. I can be trusted but I fall for lies easily. I fancy the lifestyle of an artist. I admire Dan Radcliffe, Skandar Keynes, Logan Lerman & Aaron Johnson. I'm in no mood for Kpop/Jpop. I like to shop. I'm still trying to restrain myself from eating junk food. I'm jealous of smart people. I like the smell of books. I play netball almost every week. I'm an original HATER of TWILIGHT. I'm an original FAN of Harry Potter and Logan Lerman. I love to judge people's clothing. My life long dream is to be a fashion designer and one day I hope to live it. :)